Most of the time I can hold it all together. Doesn’t matter what the world throws at me I stand my ground, take my punches and keep on going. But yesterday I had a meltdown! A friend called me to tell me about another mutual friend who has succeeded in everything he set out to do in his life. He’s a major corporate CEO; just named one of top CEO’s of the year, he runs with an A list crowd, made the movie of his dreams and he and his wife are living in a brand new multi-million dollar waterfront house. O, and did I mention he is incredibly handsome and smart, been married forever and has an adorable daughter. yep. I’m feeling like a big fat failure. I just had my first huge career flop and the daily aftershocks of that debacle are a constant reminder of my shortcomings, I have no money coming in right now, can’t get arrested with work and I’m a single mom, no fabulous husband, no great big house, no nothing….feeling pretty shitty.
I was lamenting to my friend about the miserable state of my existence and then he reminded me why “MY grass is green”. I made some choices in my life that my famous CEO friend did not. I am a single mother and I did not sell out or dump out on my daughters. They have always come first in my life and continue to be my #1 priority. So when the opportunities came to live in the right ‘hood, attend the right parties, connect with the right people. I did not. I chose to live 30 miles outside of town, show up to all of my kids practices, performances, doctors appointments. I also chose to be single, not married, live my own life, my way, no compromises. I couldn’t possibly have my friends life or be the woman married to him. But I do have my own life and I’m happy with it. My children are amazing, loving. beautiful creatures. I may never get the big house, big rock, big salary. I opted for Big Love
Hello, I’d like to add that, yes, it’s great to have a mansion, but it is 10 times more valuable to have dedication, love and courage to raise 2 daughters.
I’d rather admire a person like you than admire a big mansion in the hills (“Big deal there are so many in LA, souls like yours…not too many)
FYI: i was a student in your class at UCLA, in case you forgot my name.